He was, as his doctor stated, “going to be my guinea pig,” where experimentation was the main course of action in helping him.
Angel was willing to go through with these challenges because, if this could not be a solution to his dysphoria, he would have committed suicide.
To cope with his distress, he turned to alcohol and marijuana as a means of escape.
This was not well received by his family, and according to Angel, "They were going to put me in a mental institution." Unaware of the existence of treatments for gender dysphoria such as hormone replacement therapy, he lived for years as female, during which time he took drugs and drank alcohol.
The peace didn’t last long, because it began rapidly concaving into darkness and confusion from the constant bickering that society directed upon him.
The numerous psychiatric therapies that followed his fall eventually brought him back into society after encountering the first therapist, out of many, that stated he was a man.
Angel began to produce and star in his own line of adult films under the imprint Buck Angel Entertainment.
By this time he identified and presented as male, but had not had any genital surgery and still had a vulva, so he promoted these works describing himself as "The Man With a Pussy".
Angel appeared in Naked, a 2008 documentary book and film about the adult film industry, by director Ed Powers.
(born June 5, 1972), better known by his stage name Buck Angel, is an American adult film producer and motivational speaker.
He is the founder of Buck Angel Entertainment, a media production company.
However, he quickly realized that there was not any sufficient technology to create what he desired.
Angel gradually concluded that he did not need a penis because it is not what defined him as a man.